कुछ अधपका सा -२

अच्छा तो इस बार यूं हुआ कि हो ही गई बहस दोनों में,
कई दिनों से जो एक दूसरे को बोलना चाह रहे थे, इस बार बोल के खत्म ही कर दिए।
अब भला वो ठहरी अंतर्मुखी, मैं अगर चार बार हाल चाल ना पूछूं तो खुद से बयां नहीं कर पाती थी।
मियां हम भी एक बार नहीं, दो बार नहीं हजार मर्तबा पूछते रहते थे।
लेकिन अब तेवर बदल चुके थे, माहौल का रुख आस पास के लोगों ने बिगाड़ दिया था।
बात अब दिल की जगह सामने वाले के दिमाग पे वार करने लगी थी। अच्छा हम तो रहे गुनाहों का देवता पढ़ने वाले, वीर जारा जैसी फिल्में देख के त्याग वाला प्रेम सीखने वाले ।
भला इस प्रेम को तो त्याग से ही दर्शाया जा सकता है, अब कहां हम हसी टिठोली करके मन बहलाने वाले व्यक्ति बने।
त्याग करते गए जाने अनजाने कहा सुनी हो गई इतनी की बात अब आख़िरी शब्दो तक आ पहुंची।
मुझे तो अपने भोलेनाथ पे गुस्सा आया कि अपनी पार्वती और सती के लिए तो क्या क्या नहीं कर दिया, मेरी बारी आयी तो उसको पूर्ण विराम दे दिया!
फिर अचानक से मेरा दिमाग ठनका की इस प्रेम कि पराकाष्ठा को समझाने से अच्छा है, की अब जब सामने वाले ने ठान ही लिया है कि उसको इस प्रेम पाश में बधना ही नहीं है।
और ये तो कलियुग है यहां प्रेम की पवित्रता कहां सफल हुई है, फिर खूब बुरा भला बोल के हमने भी दर्शा दिया कि कुछ है ही नहीं, ढोंगी और निर्दयी बातों से सारा भविष्य बदल दिया।
इस प्रकार से यह तो तय हो गया कि अब सामने से कोई संपर्क नहीं होगा।
मैं भी अब निश्चिंत हो गया कि अब मेरा प्रेम उसकी पवित्रता पे सवाल नहीं होंगे, जिसको जो चाहिए था उसको वो मिल चुका था उसे ना समझने की जिद थी, और मुझे उसको ही समझाने का हौसला। दोनों जीत गए किसी को मिला कुछ नहीं लेकिन।
तभी ज़िन्दगी ने मार दी करवट अब रास्ते अलग हैं उसकी कोई खबर लेने की कोशिश नहीं करता मैं इस भरोसे में की मेरा प्रेम उसको सलामत ही रखेगा और मैं अपना प्रेम और उसकी पवित्रता को पूरे सम्मान के साथ मन कि तिजोरी में रख कर देश की सेवा में सलंग्न होने लगा।

Why do we fail?

       As per my observation there is no competitive exam that is not for you the most important thing that you need is a object oriented perfect strategy. Although 'perfect' is hypothetical here may vary on the basis of fruitful results. 

       I think the biggest cause of failure is the strategy failure. There may be following reasons for failure of strategy that I have summed up . If you find more then add them (Most welcome :) )

1. Lack of resources- Every exam has certain predefined syllabus, you have to find it and read only those topic which are specified in syllabus . Sort out them from books . It is not always necessary to read whole book (haan agr ek book me sab kuch h to fir kya dikkat hai ). This you may either called as object oriented study . Some people fail because of this reason (chaate ja rhe hain ek hi kitab).

2. Time management- This reason is for those who know that what to read but don't know how to read ? so they fail to complete the syllabus in predefined time. Most of lazy people have this kind of problem even I suffered with it and it is the biggest reason of my failure in GATE examination last year. 

3. Stress Management and Other distractions - Biologically it is very important to manage stress because it causes mental illness which further becomes depression so you have to create high value of positive thoughts over the negatives. So I prefer to give award my self after completion of certain amount of work(study; I am student now this is my only legal work haha ) which is related to my hobbies you may try this it helps a lot to stay positive. Other distractions are like - Friend circle, Alochal consumption/Smoking (believe me this hampers your performance highly shauk koi badi cheez nahi hai dear sir/ma'am) , Relationship issue (Single tries to mingle and  mingle hone ke bad fursat hi ni milegi ki padhoge babu janu shona wale sudhar jao ) and in the exam drink water & use the loo (One of my friend pee in his pants in the exam hall when he saw the paper ;) ) and the most important thing is self confidence never loose it.

Hope this helps to those who always listen to this dialogue-"beta, tmse na ho paega"

मेरी कलम से

ज़िन्दगी हमें बहुत सारी चुनौतियां देती है जिन्हें अक्सर लोग दुःख का स्त्रोत मान लेतें है परन्तु ये वास्तविक नहीं है। जिन चुनौतियों को दुखपूर्ण समझ के लोग अपने प्रयास को त्याग देते हैं वे वास्तव में संघर्ष है ।
दुःख और संघर्ष इनमें बहुत ही ज्यादा अंतर है दुःख वो है जिसकी क्षतिपूर्ति नहीं की जा सकती लेकिन संघर्ष तो जीवन का अनिवार्य अंग है जो चुनौतीपूर्ण रास्तों से होते हुए सफलता के शीर्ष पे ले जाता है ।

किसी ने कहा है - " मुश्किल इस दुनिया में कुछ भी नहीं;
फिर भी लोग अपने इरादे तोड़ देते हैं;
अगर सच्चे दिल से हो चाहत कुछ पाने की;
तो सितारे भी अपनी जगह छोड़ देते हैं।"

Yoga Day - wrong promotions

In the country where we live in has various techniques of Treatment are uses which combinally referred as Ayush which stands for Ayurveda, Yoga, Yunani , Siddhi & Homeopathy. Yoga changes the mind i.e. smabhavnao ko sambhav bnaye .  Ministry of Ayush had celebrated yoga day on the June 21 at very large scale . This seems like festival of seculars . Although millions of people were doing Yoga while a large community of Indians opposed this. I think the problem is not with that people problem is with the promotional streatgy of Government. Government never takes exapmles from the Medival India, they stuck to Ancient Indian people like Rishi Muni & All . So the people who are apposing needs convincing examples from Medivel Indian which is much developed than the older days along with non Hindus rulers as Nizamuddin Auliya , Moinuddin Chishti etc. are great Sufi saints who perform yoga in their life & also in favour of it , we have proper evidences of this. But people who were apposing don't know about these if they know they do not apoose , Perhaps. So finally I would like to change the promotional streatgies of government I am in favour of those streatgy which includes all the society , community . So the policy can become boon to everyone & creates unity .

Recognition of right or wrong

इस भौतिक जगत में सही और गलत का आंकलन करना बहुत ही कठिन कार्य रहता है , बहुत सारे ग्रन्थ इस प्रकार से उपलब्ध है जिनमे सही और गलत को लेकर मतभेद चलते रहते है , परन्तु अगर विश्लेषण किया जाये तो ये पाया जाता है की हर वो काम जिससे किसी भी जीव को, मनुष्य को ठेस पहुचे उसकी भावनाएँ आहत हो वो सबसे बड़ा पाप होगा ....................(to be continued) 

दिल जीतना सीखो , जिस्म तो बाज़ार में भी बिकते है
(learn to win heart , physic can be bought in market too. )

मोहरों का पंजीकरण

           भारतीय प्रणाली के अंतर्गत आने वाले सभी महत्वपूर्ण दस्तावेजों पर मोहरों द्वारा सत्यापन किया जाता है .इस तरह से कई ऐसे तत्व जो निकाय से सम्बन्धित नहीं है , वे कुछ अनौपचारिक माध्यमों के द्वारा इनके सत्यापन में भागीदारी निभाते है.

           जैसा की प्रायः देखा गया है की कुछ लोग फर्जीवाड़ा अर्थात जालसाजी द्वारा विभिन्न प्रकार के प्रशस्ति पत्रों , नोटरी , आवेदन पत्रों इत्यादि पर सत्यापन कराते है और इनके माध्यम सिर्फ  अनौपचारिक होते है . भारत सरकार द्वारा गठित विभिन्न आयोग जैसे प्रादेशिक परिवहन कार्यालय , तहसील, कचहरी , ब्लाक प्रमुख कार्यालय को गौर से देखे तो सत्यापन का अधिकतम प्रतिशत कार्य (जो गैरकानूनी होता है) यही से प्रारम्भ हो जाता है. अतः हमें आगे के विभागों में झाँकने की आवश्यकता नहीं है . यद्यपि इनकी मोहरे वास्तविक स्वरूप की इतनी हूबहू नकल होती है कि भेद करना बड़ा ही दुर्लभ हो जाता है .चूंकि इन मोहरों की कोई पंजीकरण संख्या नहीं होती है इस कारण से कोई भी साधारण व्यक्ति इसे आसानी से बनवा लेता है .

          वर्तमान सरकार का आगाज भारतीय गणराज्य को विश्व के शीर्ष पे पहुँचाना है. परन्तु क्या यह संभव है की चलनी से पानी को टिकाया जा सके ? इसलिए निकाय में भारी परिवर्तन की आवश्यकता है .

          अतः भ्रष्टाचार जैसी बीमारी का इलाज करने के लिए सरकार को पुख्ता कदम उठाने की जरूरत है . विभिन्न प्रणाली जैसे न्यायिक , प्रशासनिक आदि में मोहरों के अक्षर प्रकार तथा आकार निर्धारित करने के साथ पंजीकरण भी आवश्यक कर देना चाहिए . बिना पंजीकृत मोहरों को अवैध घोषित करके , पंजीकृत मोहरों को वैधानिक रूप से प्रयोग में लाना ज्यादा लाभकारी होगा . जैसा की बाँट एवम् माप विभाग में हर वर्ष प्रत्येक बाँट की जांच की जाती है उसी प्रकार से इन मोहरों के लिए अगर उपरोक्त बातें मान ली जाये तो जालसाजी , भ्रष्टाचारी जैसे अपमानित शब्दों से सरकार के बाशिंदों को मुक्ति मिल सकेगी .         

I don't know it is the mistake of whom ?

I would like to share an incident that occurred with me on 19
September, 2013 @6:53 pm.
There is a girl in my life that I loved more than I could do but a
storm in my life made me such that I have to change my heart like
stone ...
Once She was going to Agra because her family had planned to tour &
they were coming to receive her on Agra. She just explained it to me
along with that she had never traveled on that path alone. So I
decided I would go with her. Hearing this entire one of her close
friend keep stop talking to her just ignored her. Because they
understood that we were committed without getting them know. They just
didn't want her commitment blah blah etc. even today I really didn't get
exact reason. So she started to talk me rudely still I went with her
just to drop her safely & when she came back to college I went to pick
her. She had got diverted more than before & on d same day in evening
when I convincing her. She called her dad & told few bad things about
me. A call @ 6:53 pm on 19 September 2013 her dad on another side I
picked up call.
I said without listening any response from other side, “Hello Uncle Namaste"
He said, “You know who I am?"
I replied, “yes you are *****'s dad.”
He again said," From today there will be no call or message of yours on
her cellphone. "
I convinced," ok uncle but I am not such type guy as you are assuming."
He threaten, “I know about the engineering guys they are very over
reacting. You know I am retired army person I'll come to your hostel
with 100 army men & will beat you endlessly.”

After hearing this I became angry but calmed myself because He is someone’s father how I could raise my voice in front of him.

I replied very peacefully,” ok uncle there’ll be no call but I has few books of her (actually those weren't books those were sweets which she took from her trip) how can I return those?”

He ordered, “In the front of your college give all the stuff to guard & tell him to talk me.”

I replied,” Ok Uncle Namaste.”

Call was disconnected before my last statement made full sentence.

I cried a lot on that day, I had never done any kind of work so that one’s dad cursed me like that. I became gullible person. I cut my veins two to three times.

After few hours I called up her friend & my batch mate to tell her thank you for all that.

Next day I took all the stuff that was related to her. I collect all even the poly bag & gave to guard following the statement of her father.

I got depressed, frustrated, and stressful. I started to dream that how I could manage myself in the class room because every single moment when I looked at her the whole scene comes over my mind. The one thing that hurt me most is- Am I beat around 2 lakhs students to hear that anyone has come & beat me while there is no mistake of mine? This thing hurt my self-respect not my ego, ego is another thing I thinks it is an attitude that shows why you are different from others while self-respect is a kind of value to yourself which keeps you positive always with your moral values.

Suffering from this mental pain finally I told everything to my father along with all the rumors created by dumb peoples & his reply was awesome I am proud of my father. He expounded,” It is very good that you talked her father very gently because if he is hers father then it means he is like your father and if he is showing the power of his post to terrify you then why don’t you do such kind of work that he come and pats your back.”

My mind always yells me to take revenge but my father explained me the real meaning of revenge without bothering anybody move ahead & go on. This makes me stronger than before. 

Encounter to Stress & Depression

Stress & Depression are couple. When you invite any of them, They'll meet you together. Although nobody want to be their friend. But few of my crony makes deal with them.

      
      
       Stress- Son of Fear and Sluggishness.

      
     

Depression- Doughter of Agony and Expectaion. 

                                                                                         (.......to be continued.)

       

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My Worthless Efforts(2)- The First Sight{1}

“Come Avi come here these seats are vacant. Look at that man, he‟s APJ Kalam”, sitting right in the front row, Rajat said to me with his eyes broadened to capture every light ray scattered by Kalam.
“Yes I can see him”, I replied.
Meanwhile the school principal invites Kalam on stage for the prize distribution.
“It‟s my esteem pleasure that I am here in Sarswati Vidya Mandir”, said Kalam while opening the envelope.
The crowed in the auditorium was anxiously waiting to hear the name.
“And the award for best student of the year goes to Mr. Aviral Nigam, He has secured 96.7%”, Kalam announced.
A synchronized vibration of applause helped me to reach the stage.
“Thank You Sir”, I said to Kalam while receiving the trophy.
“I would like to thank my parents, my best friend Rajat….”
A sharp high pitch voice echoed in the auditorium. All of them closing their ear to save the drums.
“This lazy bone is always sleeping, wake up „Avi‟.”
“Avi… Avi…” , the voice resembled to my mom.
“Vicky bhaiya is on the other side …talk to him”, my mom said, replacing the virtual trophy with a cordless phone.
Me, “Hallooo…”
Vicky Bhaiya, “Hello Avi just tells me your roll number.”
Should I tell him the roll number? What if I secured less marks.

My Worthless Efforts(1)- The current scenario

"Oh no! It's already 10:00 pm. I have to hurry.
Mrs. Samantha could you please arrange me a cab within 15 minutes",
I said to my secretary.
"But Mr. Aviral Nigam, You have a client meeting scheduled at 10:45 pm.” said Samantha,
something that I really didn’t want to hear at that time.
“In that case… just inform the clients that I am out of town for some urgent work, but first please
call the cab … go...”
“10…9…8…7… Oh god! These pathetic slow lifts….We are in 2028 and still deprived of
teleporting wish we could just enter the desired destination and vroom...travel the place we want
to be. No wastage of petrol, no pollution and no hole in the ozone” my mind yelling out to me.
“The New Bakery House, downtown, with the best pace you can.”, holding my breath I said to
the cab driver. Where I was…hmm…yes, teleporting. But with the use of it, these poor drivers
will eventually lose their jobs. But why should I have sympathy with them. “Is your car still
struggling to overcome friction? Dude increase the throttle.”
“Sir, but there is speed limits in the city, I can’t increase beyond this”, the driver exclaimed
hopelessly.
“Ok then, just do whatever is in your reach”, I finished the worthless conversation.
 “One pineapple… no… wait, that chocolate cake with a barbie face on it and a pack of birthday
candles. These candies, yes the red one”, I indicated the shop owner.
“Anything else sir”, the shop owner in a confused manner.
“Yes some of these green jellies also”
The cashier, “Sir its 500$”
“Take this and do it quickly”, I said giving off my card to him.
“36 park avenue”, juggling with the packets I said to the cab driver.
“20 minutes left, will reach on time”, my mind said to contend myself. What a surprise it will be
for Hina! She must be thinking that I’ll be busy in the meeting. But it’s 16 june how can I forget
it,the most eventful day of my life…. 

Changing of Our Dimensions - Time Travelling

In this whole universe everything is information but we have few instruments which can measure certain type of information. So if we say the term energy it can be understood via the term information. If we say something gets energy means the information of that object increases.

           And in this universe there exists ten dimensions. So if we see the Einstein’s theory of relativity. E=mc². He connected the information with 3 dimensional objects using the reference frame the velocity of light. This is very much greater to achieve via any 3 dimensional object.

          So if we should connect information with all dimension combine using the absolute reference frame. So we can easily understand the structure & property of universe better than now also we can change our dimensions.

References
1. Bhagwat Geeta (few parts)

2. Shrimad Bhagwatam (few parts)

3. Quran (few parts)

4. Einstein’s theory of relativity

5. Ancient Aliens TV show (Season 5)

My Worthless Efforts- Dec12,2013

अब तक तो इबादत हमने की ही नहीं ;

ढूढ़ते रहे खुदा पर वो मिला ही नहीं ,

खुदा की खुदाई हम क्या जाने ;

जब से देखा है तुझे , तुझे ही खुदा हम माने,

तेरा ही दीदार किया रात दिन बस इतनी सी खता कर बैठे ;

रिश्तों की डोर तोड़कर तुझपर ही जान लुटा बैठे ,

अरमां तो इतने थे दिल में मेरे पर तुझे देखकर समझ ना आया की तुझसे कहते भी तो क्या कहते ?

My Worthless Efforts - the front cover

It’s a universal law. A chemical reaction always approaches to stability. Is life also a chemical reaction?

Story revolves around 3 love birds Avi, Hina and Amy.  

A city topper in board exam Avi falls for Hina. Their love sees zenith when Avi joins engineering. Instead of studying true solution, Avi focused more on his true love……..’Hina’.

Life of Avi takes a twist when he proposes her for marriage. Do they get married??

Does Avi’s life follow the universal law?

It’s in L.A. with Hina, Avi’s mobile displays…..

 “I hv a surprise fr u. wish we wr 2gethr. Call me whn u r free. Miss u a lot baby.

                                                                                                                                                - Amy “

                                                                                                                            

My Worthless Efforts- The Past Has Gone

There was a star in life
agreed,it was much loved
when it sank, 
it did sink.
Look at the sky’s vastness,
so many stars have broken away
so many loved ones it has lost
the lost ones, were they ever found?
But tell me, 
for the broken stars
does the sky ever grieve?
That which is past, is gone.T
here was a flower in life
which, I doted everyday on
when it dried, it dried away.
Look at the garden’s breast,dried, many of its saplings have
welted, many of its flowers have
that which welted, did it ever bloom?
But tell me, for dried flowers
does the garden create an uproar?
That which is past, is gone.
There was a cup of wine in life
which, you gave your heart and soul for
when it broke, it did break.Look at the winehouse’s courtyard
shaken, where many cups are
fall, and merge with the ground
that which fall, do they ever rise?
But tell me, for broken cups
does the winehouse ever regret?
That which is past, is gone.Soft mud, we are made of,wine drops do tend to fall.A short life, we have come with,winecups do tend to break.Yet, inside the winehousethere is a winepot, there are winecups.Those, struck by intoxicationdo splurge away on the wine.He’s a raw drinker,whose affection escapes no cup,one who has burnt from true winedoes he ever shout, or scream?
That which is past, is gone.

http://www.anubhuti-hindi.org/gauravgram/bachchan/beetgayi.htm

My Worthless Efforts- वो रोई

वो रोई तो बहुत पर मुझसे मुड़कर रोई;

कोई मजबूरी होगी जो दिल तोड़ कर रोई,

मेरे तस्वीर से मुड़कर रोई;

कर दियें उसने तस्वीर के टुकड़े,

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पता चला हमारे जाने के बाद उन्हें जोड़ कर रोई........

My Worthless Efforts - STOP DESTROYING OUR LADY'S FUTURE.

Some girls claim that they need a good serious guy because they are tired of wasting their time and falling in love with WRONG GUYS. But what is funny is when they meet the GOOD SERIOUS GUY, they start acting so crazy. They start doing old fashioned things. They start taking his love and care for granted. They start acting like bitches. They start gaming and playing around with that guy’s feelings. So with time the good guy gets hurt and he loses the feelings because of the way she treats him and he ends up letting her go. She now ends up falling in love with a player who ends up breaking her heart. And at this point she starts saying that ALL MEN ARE DOGS...Those are the kind of girls you find saying that THEY HATE LOVE. They keep on saying that ALL MEN ARE THE SAME as if they have dated and slept with the whole men in this world. Come on ladies better style up and know what you want. Don’t just fall in love just because you want him to take away your boredom, stress, loneliness... Don’t love that guy out of pity. Don’t let him waste his money and time on you if you well know that you don’t adore him. Mean it when you say that you love him and prove it out. If you’re in love with someone else then say it out. Don’t keep him around as a substitute? Don’t love him because of what he has. Respect your man if you truly love him. If you are the one in wrong, accept it and say SORRY to him.
And for some who guys laugh at what they put girls through, but they will not be laughing when they have to wipe the tears off their future daughters' faces for the same exact reasons. Look, whatever you would not want to happen to your own little girl, do not do it onto other girls because they are someone else's little girls as well. Won't you want other guys to treat your daughter right & be good to her? Won't you want your own daughter to be in good hands? Won't you want to see your daughter happy? Be the kind of man you would wants your daughter to end up being with. STOP DESTROYING OUR LADY'S FUTURE.

My Worthless Efforts- you'll be happy again

If you were cheated on,dumped for  no good reason,brokenheart by that special person who was your everything, who taught you what love is,whom you cared so much,who meant the world to you……

Don’t feel low b/c you are not alone.cry as much as you can but when you are done ask yourself these few questions.

Why am I crying now? Why I meant to cry? If she was the right person for me now why did she make me cry & even leave me for no good reason? Was I worth this?

Does she feel to sleep & eat just like me or she is out there having fun with other new people? Is that person stressed like me?

Does she feel any pain just like me? Does that person miss me at all?

After answering these questions then got down your kneels and pray to GOD to make you be strong & to help you find someone who will love you genuinely with no limitations,pretense,peer,pressure, someone who will be faithful & honest to you someone who will be serious with you, someone who won’t be affer your body or money.trust me GOD will help you find someone who will erase all away all that pain in your heart who will appreciate everything you will sacrifice for her,someone who will feel your love & care so now stop calling , texting pleading & crying for your heartless EX b/c you are wasting your time.

You are just laughing matter to her& even friends she is having fun out there & dating other people. Just try to live your life.you will get over the pain with time & you will find someone who is worthy your heart.trust one day your EX will miss you.she will try to connect you & even ask you for forgiveness but it will be too late for her. Relax for now . don’t rush to fall in love again.

Give yourself time,know yourself better.enjoy the stressfree single life as you are preparing for someone better you’ll be happy again one day !! 

My Worthless effort- sep19,2013

अपनी मनमानी की जिद्द में वो आखिर जीत गया;

मैंने वो खोया जो मेरा था ही नही,

उसने वो खोया जो सिर्फ उसी का था .....