My Worthless efforts- A virtual Lucy Gray

I Sit here quietly and watch That Face,
Face In That Picture Which I found Before Few Days.
Picture Of A Girl Whom I Have Never Met,
But Still in my life she hold Important place.

I want to know you, to see your Real face,
To take you away to a better place.
You feel so right, too good to be true,
I just can't stop thinking of you.

My friends say that I might regret,
Losing my heart to a girl I've not met.
I say there is nothing I can do,
I cannot help thinking of you.

I Know You Are Somewhere In This World,
But Only One Place Where I found you was My Heart.
God With This Picture I cannot Live this Life,
please Bring That real Girl In My sight.

I Know Even If i find you I cannot win your heart,
as there must be someone in special in your life.
Even i am into relations that i cannot escape,
But i Am sure we will become Great friends.

I believe you were made especially for me
But wonder if that could possibly be
I'm tired of being so alone and blue
But I always smile when thinking of you!!

I Close My Eyes And imagine Things,
I am holding your hand you are walking with me.
you are speaking with me and i am staring your face,
Everything appeared so real though it was fake.
Even if poor me never find you in my life,
I will always meet you in my dreams when i sleep.

I will continue this poem another day,
As There Is no one to listen what i say.
There are few pending work that i have to do
But whatever i do I will be Thinking Of you. 

My worthless effort - This is for someone special

I was an ordinary and simple guy who

just dreamt of a girl who would come

and change my life. Since the day you

walked into my life my life has

changed forever because you made

my

life so extraordinary and special with

your soulful love. You charmed me

with your simplicity and stole my

heart with your down to earth

personality. I adore you for every

single thing you do for me. You

understand me completely. I am so

very madly, deeply, crazily and

irrevocably in love with you for your

sheer awesomeness. You know how to

cheer me up on those not so

happening days. You encourage me to

do things when I give up on them. You

help me overcome my fears. You cope

up with my mood swings and my

erratic behavior with all your

maturity. Only my overwhelmed heart

knows how much I treasure your love.

You have awakened me by touching

the deepest chords of my heart. All of

the above moments/feelings were

meant to stay temporary. And so do

my happiness. But i am thankful to you

for temporary life given by you which is

so bright that all of my present

darkness aint visible .

My worthless effort- lonely palace

Oh dear! I sat near the shore;

I was getting bored,              

Nobody was present near to my side;

To whom I told the pain which I kept inside,

The vast ocean contains lot of things;

But I am wearing so many lonely rings,

The place which I saw to be mine;

Is too empty full of wine,

I dint find the key to remove this emptiness;

So it took me at the point of weakness,

Now I am on the roof of lonely palace of my choice;

Wanna to get that peaceful voice,

Just fed up of all things;

Going through the wind,

Now the key of heart loss;

It put my future on cross,

Wanna to get the key once again;

So I continue to running in the rain,

Whatever be happen now I’ll fight hardly;

& keep the special key to my heart safely……

My worthless efforts-june7,2013

हसरत हो अगर कुछ पाने की तो सितारे भी जगह छोड़ देते हैं,

मुश्किल इस दुनिया में कुछ भी नही फिर भी लोग इरादे छोड़ देते हैं│

My worthless efforts- a tale of two birds

सुनो तुम्हे सुनाता हूँ एक किस्सा;

कभी एक बार हुआ ऐसा,

एक बगुले ने देखा हंसिनी को;

मंत्रमुग्ध हो गया देखकर उसको,

आते थे दोनों एक ही सरोवर में;

बगुला हो गया दीवाना अनजाने में,

रोज था देखता उसे एक छोर से;

जैसे बाँधी गयी हो जैसे उसकी आँखे डोर से,

सरोवर में रोज आके बेचैन होता था;

दिल की धडकनों को यूँ ही छिपाता था,

कुछ महीनो में बगुले ने सोचा कुछ ऐसा;

क बता दे उसे मन का हाल था जैसा,

पर वक्त नही था उसके साथ;

हंसिनी ने छोड़ दिया सरोवर का साथ,

गुम हो गयी न जाने कहाँ पे;

बगुला भी सहम गया की खोजे उसे कहाँ पे,

उसने कर दिया था अपनी आँखों को लाल;

था उसे पुराने दिनों पे मलाल,

फिर उसने बहुत किया प्रयत्न;

तब भी नही मिला उसे चैतन्य,

किस्मत ने फिर पलटी मारी;

उसने सुधारी गलती सारी,

अब पता तो चल गया हंसिनी का उसे;

हाल हंसिनी का की वो है कैसे,

धीरे-धीरे उसने शुरू की बातें;

फिर से आ गयी चांदनी रातें,

कह दिया उससे की है प्यार है उसे हंसिनी से;

पर कर दिया इन्कार हंसिनी ने की वो नही करेगी फालतू लोग से,

पर बगुला फिर भी करता था प्यार उससे;

तभी तो करता था बात उससे,

स्वभाव था उसका अलग ऐसा;

की हंसिनी को लगता था कष्ट के जैसा,

फिर हंसिनी ने कहा की मैं नही होऊँगी तेरी;

क्यू की तू नही है जाती का मेरी,

क्या कहे बगुला की जाती नही होती कोई की;

ये तो साजिश है बनाने की नये परिवार की,

हंसिनी ने कहा की हद हो गयी है अब;

तू निकल जा जिंदगी से मेरी अब,

किस्मत का खेल है कितना न्यारा;

बगुला घूमता है आवारा,

अब भी इंतज़ार है हंसिनी का;

उसे नही ख्याल है जाती का,

कहता है की एक बार आजा वो;

नही तोड़ेगा अब दिल को,

पार कर लेगा वो जिंदगी कैसे कैसे;

जैसे चला रहा हो पंख ऐसे तैसे,

बगुला था राज़ी अब भी हर शर्तो पे;

कह दे हाँ तो बैठा ले उसे पलको पे.........

My Worthless Efforts-दर्द -ऐ -दिल

पूछ लो तुम भी इस ज़माने से ,
प्यार छुपता नहीं छुपाने से

प्यार दिल में है तो लाओ ज़बान पे ,
आग बढती है ये बुझाने से .

तुम्हें न पाना शायद बेहतर है ,
पा के फिर से तुम्हें गंवाने से .

चलो एक दुआ तो अपनी पूरी हुए ,
मिल लिए अपने एक दीवाने से .

रोये जाते हो , बस रोये जाते हो ,
क्या होगा ये धन लुटाने से .

करो कोशिश की कुर्बतें ही रहे ,
दूरियां बढ़ जाती हैं बढ़ने से .

क्या सुनाएं किसी को राज़ -ऐ -दिल ,
दर्द भी बढ़ता है सुनाने से .

My Worthless Efforts - I Wish I Never Met You

You started out so sweet
I thought damn I finally caught a good
one
You made everything that was bad in
my life better
You were my ray of sunshine in the
dark sky
You made me feel special and wanted
You made it seem like I was your
world
But as fast as the good came the bad
came even quicker
All of a sudden you turned into this
beast
On minute you loved me the next you
freaked out
You turn my sunny world into a dark
endless hell
Every time I turned around you yelled
at me bout something new that you
thought I did
You started accusing me of fuckin
around on you
You made me feel like I was wrong all
day everyday
But then you turned it around once
again to keep me yours
You said I'm sorry
And me bein the fool said ok I forgive
you
And I let you back into my life just like
that
Because I love you
And I needed and wanted you in my
life
So I moved closer to you wit your
blessin
But once more you flipped the script
and soon as I moved up here
I was so happy
I felt like I was in heaven.
But then all our worlds turned upside
And on your birthday that you did
spend wit me
It started out ruff but endin
wonderfully
And you have a cell phone but I don't
have the number and you played
dumb and said I thought you had it
Please I know you know better
So know I stand here and wish I could
turn back the hands out of time
I wish I would have never met you
I wish I could erase these memories
and feeling that I got for you
I can do bad on my own
And I know I'm nt wrthless
And I wish I didn't let you treat me
less then that
You were my world
I adored you
But know I have to adore myself
Its goin to kill my knowing your not
goin to be in my world
And not my girl.....